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My Childbirth Question

10 Nov
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Me, 16 weeks pregnant with my son.

I saw a shoulder dystocia.  A really, really scary and incredibly severe one.  It was early in my current pregnancy when I attended this birth and watching it unfold before me, calling 911 for emergent transfer, and breathing the thank-god-sigh-relief everyone is okay but I’ll never be the same again, scared the hell out of me.  For HIPAA reasons I cannot disclose further details, though I will say mom and baby ended up okay thanks to some savvy moves of two very quick thinking and talented CNMs. After the birth I went home and cried and wondered if I had what it takes to work in this field. Continue reading →

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My Fears Got Mean Fingers

20 Oct

I’m feeling it.  That oh my God desperation.  What will I do and how will I manage it?  This pregnancy has brought out some old memories from the back of my mind – they’ve stirred up my fears and given them fingers and these mean fingers have pulled open a closet door that leads to a box full of lonely emotions that I packed away about 12 months ago. While Peter and I intended on trying for a second baby this year, we also thought it would take us a lot longer to get pregnant.  I definitely didn’t think it would happen on the first try.  But what do I know? Sometimes you just get lucky.  I should have known, I got pregnant way too easily with Zoe, but I thought it was a fluke, especially since we weren’t officially trying.  Long story, but you can read bits of it here,  here and here. Continue reading →

12 Weeks Pregnant

29 Sep

Photo of baby at 12 weeks in the womb.

I’m pregnant!  I haven’t blogged in about two months because, well, I just couldn’t.  I didn’t feel well enough to write, and also, how could I blog and NOT tell you I was pregnant?  I wanted to wait till I hit the 12 week mark – and I practically have, I’ll be 12 weeks on Friday.  For now, this post is short, but I plan on writing a blog with lots of photos soon sharing the really funny story of how and where I found out I was pregnant. In short, it involved my birthday, two STRONG margaritas and a trip to the Walgreens bathroom at midnight.  Classy, I know.

Editor’s note:  I wrote about the story, finally, click here read it.

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