I promised months ago, in this post that I would tell you all how I found out I was pregnant with baby number two. I had thought that I lost all my photos from this memorable night when my old lap top died and as a result I had lost momentum to blog about it. You see, the pictures tell the story better than I ever could. In fact, just Tuesday night I was sharing with some friends how sad I was that these pictures were gone. Well, today, I stumbled across an old camera chip, and when I popped it in, there they all were, photos from my 33rd birthday and the night I found out, surprisingly, that I was pregnant. Continue reading
My Heart Knows You
17 FebThis past week, I’ve been reflecting on how close this moment is for me. I’ve been more purposeful in taking time to connect to my son and the idea of becoming a mother again. The truth is, I’ve struggled with feelings of disconnection towards this pregnancy. Maybe it’s because of the timing – getting pregnant so quickly after feeling like I just found my new purpose. Or is it because of the feelings of guilt I have – changing Zoe’s world so soon into her young life. Did I give her enough space with just the three of us? Maybe it’s because we still haven’t settled on his name. Or, perhaps it is because I spend so much time (gladly) helping doula clients, parents in childbirth classes and laboring moms at the birth center, that I tend to get caught up in their journey – so much so that I often forget that I’m on the verge of this transforming introduction too. Continue reading
Worry is the Work of Pregnancy
11 FebPlease note, this blog post is a portion taken directly from chapter three of Birthing From Within, an excellent book on childbirth preparation written by Pam England.
Worry is the Work of Pregnancy
Our study group in Albuquerque resisted when Dr. Lewis Mehl, a psychologist who specializes in childbirth-related issues said, “worry is the work of pregnancy.” We were all holding onto the notion that women who appear relaxed, confident and together, birth normally.
We were intrigued by his story about a childbirth class in Georgia. There were six couples in that class. One of the couples was particularly concerned about how to avoid a Cesarean birth. Every week, they stretched the patience of their childbirth teacher with questions. Later, at the group’s postpartum reunion, every one was amazed that the couple who had worried so much about a Cesarean birthed normally, while the five couples who had sat quietly all had Cesareans!
In the years to follow, my midwifery practice taught me that for some women, worry is the work of pregnancy. In fact, an over-confident first-time mom who thinks she has it all figured out, worries me. I worry she will not be truly prepared for what awaits her.




